In anxious agony and incoherent words of an exhausted mind In a state of isolation and loneliness that viciously consumes the spirit On nights red eyes stare into mirrors with tears for lack of sleep In unkempt rooms where chaos seemingly abounds and several empty prescription bottles are strewn In rooms where for many years illness and fear have festered, and have consumed, and have metastasized.
The walls have witnessed and concealed the deep secrets They weep in silence for the trepidation of the sorrowful dweller. After the screaming and torment, in a cluttered bed the afflicted briefly sleeps;
Eyes on the wall in picture frames curiously stare.
As I play the keys of my life, blood and tears drip on the piano. The notes on the music sheet become more intricate. I furiously and wildly continue to play trying to keep up. There is no audience or applause. The stage lights have been turned off. I play in darkness and can barely see the music sheet but for a dim light peering through the dark and heavy curtains. The sounds of the Steinway keys echo throughout the vast and empty auditorium.
The black hearts of men; the wantonness; the covetousness; the deceit. The taking of innocence; the screams; the blood that cries out for vengeance. The wicked thoughts of the mind that corrupt and corrode the soul and spirit. The darkness of it is black like tar; the stench of it—pungent and unfamiliar. It causes the eyes to water. It stifles the air in the lungs.
A once beautiful red rose is wilted and discolored; the stem becomes lifeless. the petals decompose from the edges. When they can hold on no longer, the dark petals fall away into the abyss.
The bloodshot eyes that have witnessed torment, and lifelessness, and misery. The dark cell with heavy chains; the moaning and the cries of men in that place you can’t see your hands in in front of your face; the terror that stalks and lies in wait. The unquenchable thirst. The dogged hunger. The silence and isolation that leads to madness. The insanity of the once astute, well spoken and sane. The grinding of teeth; the nakedness; the withering away of flesh. The numbness of the soul. The anesthesia that is sought to take away the pain. The dark clouds; the eternal rain.