Deep feelings inside me. Thoughts of the future and distant thoughts of the past. My reality, my hopes and dreams, my doubts and fears. I’ve drawn water from the deepest well in my heart and I’ve discovered that there is so much more to me that has yet to be revealed and manifested to the world; a paragon of inner strength, a brilliance, an endurance, a spiritual connection to those that have suffered, and to those who have experienced great pain in their lives. As I write this piece, I reflect on my life experiences, and I think about the many people in the world who have never tapped into their inner self and have been able to survive but never attain the higher heights and deeper depths of themselves and of who they really are. The beloved ones who have struggled their whole life in every facet of their existence, and are beautiful, brilliant, strong and wonderful, but are misunderstood and marginalized by society. It hurts me, it hurts me thinking about the tears they cry inside. The tears that are not seen physically, the pain they carry with them, the years of disappointment, the mental scarring and the turmoil. The heaviness of heart. I cry for that lonely and misunderstood child, for that woman who wanted to be loved, but was only used for her body, and for that man who lost his way and thought his escape was through drugs and addiction. Are most of us living under perpetually dark skies? Is this really life? I contemplate these questions, and my thoughts become somewhat clouded. I know as human beings we have a certain resilience and a hardwired instinct of self-preservation. On the other hand I live in the real world and I cannot overlook what my eyes see and my ears hear in regards to the pain and turmoil of those not able to navigate the many pitfalls and stumbling blocks of this thing we call life. This journey we all embark on when we are born. What is the true meaning of life and living? I guess it’s kind of an open ended question, but I ask nonetheless. I hold onto the hope that one day we all will be happy, and that we all will find fulfillment in our lives in a place where all tears will be wiped away, where there is no sorrow, no anger or stress, sickness or pain. Only love and healing. Peace and joy.